As unhealthy as it sounds, I tend to bottle up my emotions and have a mini breakdown quarterly.  I deal with things by pushing the emotional part away and trying to reason and nit pick about the situation.  This makes me feel better temporary but as we know, I ignore the very vital part of dealing with the anger, hurt, sadness, etc etc before moving on.  Therefore, I have myself a good cry a few weeks or months later.

And I feel better.  As terrible as it sounds, I think the bigger the sobs, the better.  It’s cleansing.  Sure, I would be better off dealing with the emotions when they actual are supposed to happen but I know I am not alone here.

I had myself a big old sob fest last night.  Things have been busy in my life and I’ve been trying to channel my inner energizer bunny and I finally crashed and burned last night.  I felt miserable.  I woke up this morning and was very thankful for my Kiehl’s Avocado Eye Cream.  However, as I moved on with my day, I felt better and well like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.

And I feel even better after writing this post.

Hope you all had a beautiful Monday!

Late Monday Greetings!  I hope you all had a fabulous 4th of July weekend and are recovering nicely.I had a great time with my family this weekend and my younger brother flew in from NYC to join us.  His girlfriend joined us from way up North (READ:  Canada) as well.  Despite the fact she claimed to be vegan, she dabbled in some meat this weekend and even ate a little pork this evening.  Holidays still make me a little sad with my father being in another state.  I called him and after hung up, I cried.  I am convinced that divorce is harder to deal with when you are an adult.  That’s not to say it isn’t hard as a child; goodness knows so many friends of mine struggled with the weekend juggle of having two different bedrooms.    Anyways, it’s hard no matter what age.

I dislike that my family is so scattered especially around the holidays and we may be even more scattered shortly.  My brother is thinking about quitting his perfectly good job in NYC and moving to Canada to be with his girl for a while.  He’s convinced it’s the right thing and she has thrown in many “hints” this weekend that the decision may be more than solidified.

My mother, father and I think the idea is ludicrous and are very distraught as to why he would think it would be a good idea, especially in the economy.  He’s old enough to make his own decisions but it’s very foolish.  And this sounds selfish I know but I would prefer not to have any more family scattering.

Not really sure what to do as we have said our piece and he’s flying back to NYC tomorrow.  A scattered family is still a family but  don’t know how much more scattering this family can take.